Speaking for Myself

Hey all, it’s me, Angie. As most of you know, I lived and from my vantage point, it’s kind of like I took a really long nap and woke up to a whole new body that can’t walk safely, talk long, or eat/swallow the same. The only things I don’t have a recollection of is the weekend before the accident and when I was in a coma and the accident itself. 

Every day I spend 8+ hours in therapy working on my fine and gross motor skills at Hope Rehabilitation Center where Ryne, Nola, and I currently live. Things, like folding laundry and doing my hair and makeup, are challenging for me 

I want to thank EACH of you for lifting my literal life up to our Papa in a desperate plea. I’m forever indebted to each of you individually for taking the time out of your busy lives and personal problems to ask our Papa to find a way to help me live.

As with every post I want to give you each a detailed update of answered prayer and the things I’m still looking for prayer and support in.

Updates:

  • We finally were approved for an accessible apartment and Ryne will be moving our things from our old apartment to the new one on June 1st.
  • I discharge from Hope Networks inpatient facility on June 8th.
  • I have been upgraded from a full-time wheelchair to an (almost) full time standing walker.
  • I plan on walking a 5k with my PT soon.
  • I’m still hurting because I feel my physical has changed a lot but not my psychological hasn’t necessarily.
  • I’m not feeling God’s closeness to me in this, as much as I pray and read His word.

Feel free to email back or text or send me any questions you may have. Right now I plan to regularly update this myself.

With thanks and love to all of you,

Angie

19 Comments

  1. AMY JACOB
    May 23, 2019

    I’m glad you are healing. I pray for you always. It’s great to hear from you. Good Luck in your new home!

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  2. Marilyn Troyer
    May 23, 2019

    Angie, it’s a blessing to see you speaking for yourself! You come to mind often and I’m so grateful for all that God is doing in and through you. I’m sorry that you’re struggling to sense God’s nearness to you in all of this — it seems so unfair. But, also, He is always good. And so it must be that He is doing something in and through you during this challenging time. This article might encourage you in this time of spiritual distance. https://www.ligonier.org/blog/the-dark-night-of-the-soul/
    Sending you so much love from Ohio.

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    1. Mary Moskal
      May 24, 2019

      Hi Angela
      It is so good to hear you sending your message. We are excited for you and Ryne to be in your new place. You are so loved. It is hard to think of you and your daily struggles. Just remember lean on all those people that God has placed in your life to help you and always know God is just a whisper away In the silence of your thoughts he surrounds you and takes care of your needs. Sometimes, we struggle with knowing the reason why things happen in this life as they do. But with time, we can heal. You are here (thank God), you are living this life right now. You are still the absolutely beautiful, intelligent, and thoughtful Angela we saw go from a little girl to a beautiful young women. I am amazed at all you have accomplished in the last nine months. Totally amazed! You are strong and you are someone I am so very proud to say I have had the pleasure to watch grow up and become the person you are today. Keep talking, keep engaged with others in conversation, take a few more steps each day. And you will be amazed where your drive and determination will continue to take you. You are so very loved Angela. God bless you.

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  3. Sara
    May 23, 2019

    ❤❤❤

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  4. Ketrina & Dale
    May 23, 2019

    Angie,
    We’re so grateful to read your voice on the blog! We thank God for bringing you and your family this far—from your accident to this period of healing. Thank you for your vulnerability, for being the voice of many who have struggled, for being brave and diligent in your therapy, and trusting even when you don’t feel that God is close.
    You have an incredible sister, husband and family who love you deeply, and an army of supporters and people praying for you. I hope that many comment, so you can be reassured of the myriad of people who love, care about and pray for you. Consider meditating on Psalm 145. It reminds us that The Lord is great, good, kind and near to all who call on him. Love you! The Ruff’s

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  5. Dawn Spooner
    May 24, 2019

    Continued prayers for you that you will soon be out of pain and that you will feel Gods presence, he is there with you every step of the way. Sometimes it very difficult to feel his presence when we are struggling but we need to focus on the small accomplishments that he is blessing us with. Continue your prayers and readings and know that there are many others praying for you and with you. Good luck on your new apartment and with your new standing walker. And remember God is with you.

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  6. Joanne Dodson
    May 24, 2019

    Angie, I am so very happy to see you are making progress in your healing. I think about you all so many times.
    I lost my faith in God since my husband passed in 2008. I have recently found him again. He is always checking your faith. Don’t ever give up on yourself and especially on God.
    I have had so many people tell me, “God never gives you more than he knows you can handle.”
    Keep your head held high. I will keep my prayers going for you and your family.🙏🙏🙏💕💕💕

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  7. Tiff
    May 24, 2019

    So happy to read that you continue progress and are speaking for yourself, now. I pray everyday for you and so does my family. I can’t wait to hear about that 5K. Love you girl and continued prayers. Congratulations on the new place.

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  8. Angie Fischer
    May 24, 2019

    Angie,
    I often think of how you are.
    Praying, that through all of this you will feel the presence of our Lord and Savior. Continued prayers.
    Angie. 🙂

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  9. Jennifer Rountree
    May 24, 2019

    Angie, you have been in my constant paryers since your accident and I continue to lift you and Ryne in prayers during this season. Your strength and progress is just amazing and while you continue to be in pain and struggle with God being near, there are many who are lifting you in prayer and following this journey with hope and continued progress for you. I know we don’t know each other personally, but as a fellow member of Riv you are in my prayers! I will definitely pray that you find God’s presence and feel him with you!

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  10. Sandy Kreager
    May 24, 2019

    God’s Love All Around You Angie!

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  11. Mary Moskal
    May 24, 2019

    Hi Angela
    It is so good to hear you sending your message. We are excited for you and Ryne to be in your new place. You are so loved. It is hard to think of you and your daily struggles. Just remember lean on all those people that God has placed in your life to help you and always know God is just a whisper away In the silence of your thoughts he surrounds you and takes care of your needs. Sometimes, we struggle with knowing the reason why things happen in this life as they do. But with time, we can heal. You are here (thank God), you are living this life right now. You are still the absolutely beautiful, intelligent, and thoughtful Angela we saw go from a little girl to a beautiful young women. I am amazed at all you have accomplished in the last nine months. Totally amazed! You are strong and you are someone I am so very proud to say I have had the pleasure to watch grow up and become the person you are today. Keep talking, keep engaged with others in conversation, take a few more steps each day. And you will be amazed where your drive and determination will continue to take you. You are so very loved Angela. God bless you.

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  12. Becky
    May 24, 2019

    I don’t know you but your blog passed my way. After reading it I felt God speaking to me. I’m praying for a miracle for you. Recently, I had a friend her passed away in a car accident. She had 6 kids in the car with her. Two were rushed to the hospital and had brain injuries. 1 month later they are home. What I saw in the hospital, I wasn’t sure they would wake from their comma and extensive injuries. But My doubt made me ashamed of what God can do and the power of prayer. I’ll be praying for your continued faith walk in all of this and for a miracle in your recovery.

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  13. Diane storey
    May 24, 2019

    Hi Angie and Ryne,
    I’m Diane, and I am your mom’s cousin. Your grandpa and my dad are brothers. I have kept the prayer chain going and will continue. I am thrilled to hear that you are now adding your words to this blog. I am so thankful that you lived and that you are now able to work hard at rehabilitation. You are remarkable. You have already come so far and I have no doubt that your hard work will bring you to where you need and want to be. Funny that I say that because I have only met you a few times. But I know where your roots are and that is such a good thing. You have an army of prayer warriors send out many, many prayers for you. It’s so good that you are now able to write some updates. Thank you so much for sharing with all. This really made my day. God bless you!

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  14. Lorraine A Revard
    May 24, 2019

    Angie I am so glad you are doing well. Getting in your own home I’m sure will make you feel much better. Keep up the great work.

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  15. Karen (Susie) Cox Salesky
    May 25, 2019

    Hi Angie. I am your mom’s cousin Karen (Susie to my Grierson family). I am sure you don’t know me because you and your sister were little girls the last time we met. Your grandpa and my dad were brothers (Al aka Chum). My sister Diney posted above and said more eloquently than I can say many of the emotions, thoughts and hopes I have for you. My husband Jim and I have kept you and yours in our prayers daily since the accident, as have many of our friends and family as well as our church. You are inspirational in every sense of the word. I feel compelled to share the following with you. A couple days after your accident I was at church on a weekday and had shared with our pastors your story. That’s when you were put on our prayer list. Later that morning a church member I hadn’t met stopped by my desk to leave a package for one of our pastors. She introduced herself and I remarked on the beautiful vase she had made. She explained that she is into the ancient Japanese art form called Kintsugi. She said the original piece had been broken into many pieces. The goal for the artist is to reconstruct the art into a new piece of even greater beauty, different than what it was but more beautiful in its reconstruction. I told her about how we had just put you on our prayer list and how ironic it was that she would bring this art in at this time. We both were struck by the timing. Anyway, I have felt compelled to share that moment with you and this is the time. I hope this makes some sense to you . I can’t imagine your struggles and don’t pretend to. You are a fierce warrior and an example of a hero. I know that is of little solace during your struggle but know that so many people, even people you don’t know, admire you so. Prayers are continuing daily. What a huge accomplishment this blog is. Thanks for sharing.

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  16. Denise Hinton
    May 25, 2019

    I was thinking of you and wondering how you were doing now that time has passed. Thank you for the Speaking for Myself update! Love and prayers to you and your supportive people who surround you with love and kindness. Keep the updates coming whenever you feel called to do so.

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  17. Marcus Hagsten
    June 4, 2019

    Hi Angie,
    Me and my girlfriend has been following this blog since we saw your Scooby Doo outfits in October. We are so happy you are slowly getting better and are keeping you in our thoughts. Just wanted to let you know people around the globe are caring about your well-being!

    Best Wishes
    Marcus and Agnes, Sweden

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  18. Kent Darcie
    June 21, 2019

    Angie,
    What a wonderful blessing to read of your progress. Truly many prayers have been answered! You are so precious to God. I hope you realize how precious you are to so many of us! My prayers for you and your loved ones continue and I look forward to your next update!

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